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林雪萍' REBECCA 11 MAY is my special day

the man in my life 柯伟汶' JAVIER

our love journey
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[kisses] #082 [kisses] [ 12:25 ]

my fault, shall apologise before i start my post.. wait! a moment please.. i don't think i'm actually at fault, it's all boyfriend's fault because my darling laptop had been accompany plus staying overnight[s] with boyfriend ever since my last update till yesterday.. so who to blame.? hahhaa..

ohya, before i forget.. i had one piece of good news.. [perhaps for me only la] boyfriend had been selected to be in the DECEMBER batch for his NS.. ain't him lucky right? [F.Y.I : december batch has been known as the most relaxing batch among all other intake because there are more public holidays!] which mean boyfriend will get to book out more often as there are quite a number of holidays in december(christmas and another one), jan(chinese new year) and so on.. yeah yeah~

well well.. i gave up! i had totally no idea what i've done these past few days all due to my super useless memory.. despite how hard i tried to recall, nothing seems to flash back my mind.. F**K ! can you imagine what will i be like when i reached the age of 20 or 30 ? now that i'm only 18-to-be, i had serious difficulties in memorising things or things people reminded me again and again..

situation got even worst nowadays..

examples:

-little brother reminded me to off the heater in 5 minutes time, yet i've totally forgotten everything, everytime!

-i can't remember what i ate for breakfast or lunch even when this question was asked somewhere around evening time or night time that very day!!

-i tend to forget where i placed my belonging at, even thought that item was just away from me for few minutes!!!

-i always forget to call back right after i hanged my phone, even when i'm told to do so!!!!

see, these are just few examples of mine.. can you imagine how awesome and incredible my memory is like.? sad to say, i supposed oink oink pig have better brain than me now(:

glad that there's photos to remind me sometime.. [at least maybe i'm not totally beyond hope yet] boyfriend and i went pizza hut for dinner yesterday.. nevertheless to say, yummy yummy! actually we wanted to dine at sakura, but can you imagine how the place look like, despite boyfriend and i enter the restaurant, our appetite were gone? yesyes, we didn't even enter the place.. we saw it in a distance away and we decided to go somewhere else to settle our dinner..

thankfully pizza hut was our right choice.. at least it looks more better? and much more comfortable? hahaha! as usual, boyfriend chose pizza while i chose pasta.. but little change this time.. instead of hawaiian pizza, boyfriend chose ocean catch pizza.. and for me this girlfriend, i chose crayfish pasta[its new recommendation].. never to forget my favourite "sweet&spicy drumsticks" and "mushroom soup" !! simply delicious.. like boyfriend said, at least it's worth for the price(:

done! shall end my post here as i have to get myself prepared for class at night.. goodbye~

i want to slim down please!

[edited]

specially to all my readers:

for those who managed to see the poll/survey undernerth the nuffnang icon, please kindly help me complete it..

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~thanks in advance people~

[kisses] #081 [kisses] [ 13:53 ]

pardon me from not blogging these past few days alright?

[answer "NO" is not allowed!]

like i said, i will be spending most of my precious time with boyfriend recently just before he change his "full-time job" to NS man, as early as this coming july? or somewhere around there.. NS means that:

-lesser time for each other.

-boyfriend wouldn't have much freedom as now.

-two of us would be drifting more apart.

-lesser communication.

that's why we treasure these few months of freedom left for us.. being a faithful, caring and understanding girlfriend will be a tough task for me ahead, but i shall try my very best to be one, and prove to everyone that "you are wrong!" hahhaa.. hopefully boyfriend will have confidence in me, and wouldn't take my goodness for granted alright? *wink wink*

went plaza S' for movie last thursday.. watched "awake" .. well, shall rate it 8/10 as the storyline was quite an unpredicted one.. actually wanted to watch "run papa run" at The Cathay, but had no idea why there didn't have the show.. no choice and have to try plaza S' for luck.. reach upon there and realised the only time slot left for "run papa run" was quite late..

boyfriend and i stood there cracking our brains and finally he suggested the movie "awake".. it was like so finally when he suddenly made that decision because i thought he would throw the decision bomb to me.. hahhaa! the ticket seller gave me a weird glance and asked if i brought my i.c along as the show was rated nc16.. i was like "... huh? nc16 need i.c for what?" i still thought i mistaken the show as m18 that's why she mention i.c .. hahhaa..

ohya, i saw gay.. sitting infront of our seats.. before the show starts, i had the feeling that they are gay, but boyfriend don't believe.. as the show started and lights turned off, they really starts to behave in their ways.. movement like, hands over one another, legs crossing the others' lap, i feed you and you feed me, and many more.. till then,boyfriend had no choice but to believe my six sense.. stupid boyfriend was heartless.. keep "eee~" here "eee~" there.. had no idea why he's like that, bias towards these people..

whenever he saw gay or les, pretty with ugly, handsome with over-chubby girl, his "eee~ language" would start.. i often told him, he actually dont need to do good deeds like donating, giving his seat to elderly or so, because he had the capable to do or say things negatively in one day, which can overcome his good deeds he had create for 1 whole year..

1 year of good deeds can be drained within 1day of negative acts.. sign~

22nd april 08(:

[ can imagine how he play with his child.. ]

these photos were taken for that day.. was shopping around marina square since that afternoon.. perhaps because of weekday, the whole shopping center was quite quiet and not much people eventually.. shop and joke around us till we had no more strength.. yes, no more strength at all.. not even a strength to talk anymore.. hahhaa.. around evening time went 7-11 buy drinks and went up to the open space and slack..

was relaxing as the weather was cooling and windy.. chatting like nobody business, joking with one another, laughing truely out from heart, taking photos together, i am sure that i will miss all these when boyfriend is in army.. boyfriend, will you too?

home sweet home after the slacking.. reached home and the very first thing boyfriend did was, on the laptop and start chiong-ing in his gaming world.. dots dots dots.! boyfriend recently was addicted to an online game- "mo siang" .. he claimed that the game was interesting blea blea blea~ .. but till now, i don't even know how to play, and had no interest to that game at all.. hahaha.. perhaps this is better as i won't have to fight over the laptop with boyfriend..

when the clock strikes 12am, HAPPY 3YEARS 2MONTHS((:

[first 3years 2months present-"obviously forced by me"]

once again- HAPPY ANNIVERSARY boyfriend((:

23rd april 08((:

woke up early morning by boyfriend.. decided to cooked noodle for him while he's bathing and in return, he fried me eggs.. yummy yummy.! quick preparation and both of us went to civic for studies.. hahaha! i know it sounds weird when "studies" and "library" came out from my mouth..

boyfriend took laptop there too.. guess correct! he brought it there for his darling "mo siang" .. well, he chose books for me to read.. all about business somemore.. so as a good girlfriend, i read it while he play his game.. but after few moment later, i eventually gave up.. i almost bored to death can? hahhaa..

i began to roam around the library, from shelves to shelves, corner to corner, and lastly i'm everywhere around the library.. hahaha.. stay in there for few hours can you imagine? end up i decided to borrow some books from there.. "singapore ghost stories"! not that i'm the only one addicted with that book, surprisingly boyfriend was addicted too.. hahhaa! at least can get him to read story book, instead of his darling mo siang..

woo~ had been a long time ever since i last written a long post.. great! at least now you guys can read more too.. hahhaa.. shall come to an end now as boyfriend was seriously bored since i had been sitting right infront of lappy for hours..

take care and goodbye peeps!

[kisses] #080 [kisses] [ 12:57 ]

apologise apologise and apologise..

had been spending my little time with my precious boyfriend recently as i had been neglecting him for a period of time ever since my school started.. so this few days, we went shopping almost everyday? [something like that]..but sad to say that we had a hard time struggling for places to go, as singapore's shopping centres were so limited.. well, boyfriend and my conversation was actually very standard everytime.. [perhaps you and your bf/gf might find this short conversation familiar too?] hahaa..

boyfriend: "want to go where for shopping today?"
girlfriend: "i had no idea at all. why not i give you a chance to make decide? *laugh*"
boyfriend: "*of course he will try all his ways to push this "bomb" back to me.*
girlfriend: "erm.. how about town? or bugis? that's all i can think of."
boyfriend: *never fail to ask me back* " for? there nice to shop meh? think of others can?"
girlfriend: *eventually i decided to remain silence and throw back that "bomb" to him.*
boyfriend: *struggling for a real longtime* "erm.. okay, we go town/ bugis shopping, want?"

isn't this boyfriend of mine sounds interesting and humour? or should i say he is just simply too lazy to think? hahhaa.. this is what we would went through everytime, sad sad sad.! so what about you guys? does this happen to you and your partner too? feel free to share with me..

well, managed to steal some "zi lian" photo of boyfriend from his handphone..

[like girlfriend, like boyfriend]

i've decided to post it out as my revenge to him(:

ya, it's you! smile boyfriend(:

to all my girlfriends:

please msg me or tag me as soon as possible, whether you guys are free to meet up on my birthday.. i know mother's day celebration is on, but no worries.. the meeting time will be about 10 or 11pm? looking forward for all your replies as boyfriend and i had to decide for the rest(:

[kisses] #079 [kisses] [ 14:20 ]

i happenned to come across this short article about abortion, and i find it really meaningful to share with all of you.. my tears came down as i was reading it, no matter how many times i re-read it.. hope you all enjoy this too (:

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me.The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off.

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.

No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.Please be careful.

Love,
Your Baby Girl

[kisses] #078 [kisses] [ 11:55 ]

boring boring boring~

hahaha! i think i getting more "zi lian" day by day.. perhaps this is my own method of de-stress.? through lens, everything turns out to be different.. my life through the lens, seems better than real life.. some people may think that i look happy everyday and live as if without any worries, just because of the smile on my face.. however, things might not always turns out to be as perfect as i thought or expected..

whenever i'm feeling down, i would look back at those photo taken.. it leads me a way out from my sadness and lost confident, realising that the cheerful and carefree girl is still inside me.. encourage me to continue my life with a smile, no matter how rocky the forward is..

hahhaa.. now that i have say out whatever rubbish inside me, i feels better! no worries, i'm totally alright now.. actually, i had no idea why i felt this way recently.. my mood seems to swing real fast nowadays.. i can smile happily this moment, emo the next moment, and tear for no reason the very next moment.. i don't even know what i'm crying for but i just feel like crying out alone in a quiet corner, where i don't need to control myself from crying because of anyone..

nobody is to be blame because no one bully me.. perhaps i'm really growing up day by day, where my thoughts and life starts to change and turn mature.. i cannot control my mind from flashing backwards, but i can try my best to control my tears right.. hahhaa..! i know it's time for me to stop all my nonsense and nagging right now before everyone starts to stop dropping by my blog.. [hopefully no one does that okay?] shall update again when i'm free.. take care everybody..